the fire within

Fire, the destroyer and the creator, just like its counterparts (air, water and earth) is both powerful and indispensable. It has the unstoppable energy to make or break, the assertiveness to make its action binding and the passion to burn brilliantly. Its spark can bring down everything to ashes if it gets outraged or it can instead illuminate the surroundings, if a different path is what it wishes to embark.

And right now, this is the element I could relate to the most.

It all started in my grandparents’ house, when sitting besides my grandmother, I could imagine the necessity of fire to purify the soul of my loving grandfather. The flames did their job, rising up and beyond the pyre, leaving behind nothing but ashes, to mark the end of a beginning, re-announcing the inevitable truth in the most supreme form – ‘Nothing is permanent.’

Little did I realize, amidst the chaos in my life, there was another fire, slowly spreading through the book of my life. The pages which were once written with utmost love and care were suddenly caught up in flames as I went through some unforeseen turns. A few got lost, while the leftover yellowed parchments still struggled to preserve the precious memories. It was an indication to move forward, I guess, along with the cracks. The book now consists of blank pages, to be written afresh, yet the stories which once existed are now being held as shattered pieces, their remnants still flying in the air as light ashes, the tiny black crystals withering away from the corners, illuminating like a firefly in the backdrop of the extinguishing flames.

Just as I was about to establish the nature of my relation to this element, we met yet again, this time with a different purpose. My family was gathered to witness the marriage ceremony of my cousin, and there they were, the flames once again doing their job, to take in all the offerings and mark the beginning of a new relationship. The fire burned slowly, brightly and brilliantly to purify the newly created bond, showering blessings over everyone present.

It occurred to me then, that perhaps it was not I who was encountering fire in those places, not the least bit by chance. It has been always there, simply trying to reflect what I felt during all those times – my deep desire to cry out loud for the loss, to get past some dead-end bridges and to enjoy the warmth of a happy occasion.

And so, I hereby acknowledge and bow to the fire within. The fire, which has brought me back to the place which defines me, yet again. 🙂



The Road Not Taken

When it comes to making a choice, I have always gone for the well-lit paths in my life. The paths, where I could foresee no danger or complications till some point. The dark ones, on the other hand have always been too scary, where I could not see at all what would be coming next. Every time I tried to take a step forward in that direction, I turned back.

Dark Road, July 24, 2010

I never noticed this tendency of mine until last week when I went out for a walk after dinner. There is a street in my neighborhood which is usually dark and I never used to take it. I always chose the other one.

The usual was about to happen again that day, when I saw someone going in the other direction. I was tempted to try the new way then. I waited for sometime (to confirm there weren’t any dogs or anything unusual there) but I did not hear anything out of place.There was absolute silence.

I thought how bad could it be? I took another step forward. Not a soul seemed to exist. There was some light, thanks to the lamppost nearby otherwise there was absolute darkness ahead. A little scared, I took a few more steps and to my surprise, slowly the darkness descended. It was a lonely road, surrounded with trees having beautiful white flowers, which added their fragrance to the light breeze of the night. On the path, milky moonlight came shimmering down through the trees dispelling all the darkness. It was a silvery effect altogether, making me think of just one thing- Has it been here all this time and I never cared to try?

2470403184_ac6460263aI stood there awestruck for a while and a realization dawned upon me. Had I never tried this road, I would have never encountered this beauty. A step in this direction proved extraordinary, my fear was definitely gone and I got the confidence of taking the unconventional way for once.

In our lives, we are often reluctant to take the road less traveled as we are accustomed to taking the one which has been used since ages. Seldom we try to do something unconventional. We forget that a step towards the one less traveled might lead to something totally unexpected and amazing. So, take that one step and who knows, it might make all the difference!!! 😉

P.S. The incident did remind me of Robert Frost and I know many of you would be reminded of it. So why not read it again! It is a beautiful poem indeed! 🙂

The Road Not Taken
-Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

The Window Seat

There is nothing more refreshing than a journey, rejuvenating you as you take the much needed break from your monotonous life. And even better is a journey with your family, when you get to spend the quality time with your loved ones.
I decided to take one too, last week, and I was offered a window seat by my brother which reminded me of the good old childhood days, when grabbing the window seat was a must so as to enjoy the journey! I still remember the excitement and thrill of getting that seat.. a perfect ‘lost in thoughts’ frame to set yourself in, as if you are starring in a movie!! 😉


 I’ve always loved the window seat..whether in the bus, a car, or a train. There is some unexplained pleasure in witnessing your journey with the fresh air, the scenery where every passing tree seems to bid goodbye and the road ahead welcomes you!

There’s so much to see-the quick glimpses of a bleeding sun, the sky-touching buildings, endless grass green lands, the mysteriously shaped clouds…. And even though everything moves by at a rate where I can’t take in every bit of detail, but atleast I am able to see the bigger picture.

The window seat is also a refuge from company I want to avoid..(Esp the weirdos who sit next to me when I am travelling by a bus or train! ). And it is of course a fairly good place to welcome the chain of thoughts! It maybe about my day, my life, how I wish to make the world a better place, or any random thoughts. But there’s always something going through my mind at the same speed everything passes my eyes. Sometimes I don’t even think. Sometimes I just stare. And even in that there’s some magic!

Simply me…!

This is my first blog post, & as the title suggests this is about me and I wanna share some of my thoughts.
I am quite a normal girl with a tinge of weirdness. Now at times that makes me wonder because mostly it turns out that I am just the right amount of weird but sometimes I feel as if I am crazy! But that is okay..coz I like the way i am! Precisely speaking “Main apni favourite hoon!” 

Anyways, I am the kind of person who is definitely not in the favor of leading a monotonous life. Of course, no one loves problems in their lives but I believe that without them it just won’t feel like LIFE!! You gotta admit that it is an awesome feeling when you overcome your problems or achieve something you’ve desired for long..! Sometimes you need those tears to remind you how precious and priceless that smile is..:)

At times in life, I love to take a pause all the thoughts in my mind and frankly speaking i “think” a lot..! Thus, the break becomes a necessity sometimes..So i usually reach for my earphones and head to my terrace. And then its just the melodious tunes pouring into my ears, trying to clear the thoughts in my mind and I begin to observe everything around me.
Nature has its own way of expressing its happiness..& when it does, everything just seems BEAUTIFUL!
Like the amazing wind which makes an entire tree dance with joy..the raindrop which makes a leaf proud of its beauty..the awesome sunset making the floating clouds adorable..!
The gloomy dusk when sun bids goodbye and with a sweet smile the moon arrives..sometimes crescent, sometimes complete spreading the milky moonlight..the time when birds flock back to their nests, dotting the sky with different patterns and sometimes that mind blowing breeze that ruffles through my hair & makes me realize…yeah!! Life is beautiful……

And after feeling all this there is an instantaneous smile on my face…& i become ready to move on……